As everyone knows, my name is Marissa and I'm married to the greatest man in the world. I'm only 24 years old and all I've ever wanted to do in life was to be a mom and help people. I don't care if it's just being inspirational or creating a business, (like I hope to do), I want to impact lives in a positive way. I'm pretty outgoing when I'm around people I know well. Other than that, I'm kind of awkward and sometimes feel like I don't know how to act around people. With that being said, I'm diagnosed with social anxiety so I'm really proud of myself for putting everything out here for all to read. I know I have a purpose and I'm excited to see where this journey is going to take me.
Growing up I didn't have the typical mom and dad household. My dad was never around besides the random times he would show up on my street asking my friends and me "which one of you is Marissa?", then following up with, "I'm your dad." There was eight of us living in a three bedroom home. I shared a room with my two older cousins who were like sisters to me. Some called their rooms the couch, others called theirs the basement. As you can tell, we didn't have a lot of money but I was still able to do sports like cheerleading, softball (even though I was horrible at it), and broomball growing up through high school. I was always a little jealous of the kids in high school who had fancy shoes and the "cool" name brand uniforms when I wore Goodwill, Payless, and had free uniforms because we couldn't really afford to purchase them ourselves. While I do appreciate that I was taught to work hard at a young age, I feel like I had to grow up fast. Sometimes, I honestly don't remember just being a kid. It hurts knowing that my little brother went through it too and there's nothing I can do to change that for him. Can you tell why a family of my own is so important to me? So live while you can.
I do thank the good Lord that I was able to move away from home. I feel like I've created my own little family here with just my husband Jake and our little pup Ceecee. I've started going to therapy to deal with my childhood issues that have carried into my adult hood. One of the biggest things I'm trying to work on for personal growth is forgiveness.
Each day is a new day. Although I'm cramping more than normal and I've been getting a few more headaches, I am alive. I have a roof over my head. I have food in my stomach and I get exercise (remember I'm trying to run a half marathon). The greatest thing of all is knowing that I get to wake up every single day to my best friend. Even though everyone has a story, take the negatives and work through them. Your mental health is so important and I'm so sad it took me so long to learn that. Just like Gary Allan sings, "Every storm runs out of rain."